God's Blessing

God does bless us when we ask for it. Yesterday was Sunday (my least favorite day of the week, ask me and I will explain way), and I just prayed to God that it will be different, that I wont feel certain ways.  Of course His wonderful humor made me cry at 12:30am... So, my day started very early making me hate Sunday's.  Well, went to Church (Ya, actually had off work), and helped with our outreach of giving out ThanksGiving dinners to over 100 people.  I missed being involved in church and I did enjoy being part of something.  Then I helped my dad outside for about 4hrs with the fish pond.  Loved helping him, still hated Sunday.  Finally, I took my Korean girls (only 4 of them) to someones house.  After an hr of being at their house and just talking to the kids, I realized God turned my Sunday around.  He blessed me and answered my prayers.  I did not realize it right away, but after I stepped back and just realized what was going on, I knew God was blessing me.  I asked, so I noticed.  If I never asked God to bless me and help me, would I have even noticed what God was doing?  God made a situation happen and I just felt at home and like I belonged there.  I was so close to not even noticing.  Sometimes we just need to take a step back and just look at life to see what God is doing, how He is working in our lives.

Nothing new

There is nothing really new to report.  I am doing the same old same old.  Working two jobs and just overall busy.  I do still enjoy both of my jobs.  Still living at home, so when Im home I still have stuff to do and technically cant relax still. I got little going on outside of work, but it is enough to keep me busy.  Been reading lots of books, which I am quite pleased about.  I now have time to read, at work anyways.  Not sure if anyone will read this... So, me writing this is probably in vain. I have found people to see once a week, don't really see or talk to them else wise.  I do have one kid from that group who reminds me sooo much of Jon Finley.  It is actually creepy.  The voice, same color skin and skinny, and the fact he constantly texts me.  To the point where I am not really replying.  Mean I know, but it is getting to much.  Oh, and he is very clingy, annoyingly clingy.  Oh, I wonder if I can compare everyone in that group to people at LU.  Nope, cause at LU, if I had a choice, I would not pick those people.  Most are not my type nor would they want to even be around me.  Some are into MMA & BJJ, I get along with those guys the best, imagine that.
Well, that is whats been going on in my life.


.:Molly:.

Oct 28, 2011 5:00am

October 28, 2011 at 5:00am is the day I almost died.  You heard me correctly, I almost died.  It was God's hand of protection over my life which saved me.  I am truly blessed to be alive and I know God has more for my life and something planned which I need to be alive for. The brief story of how God saved my life.
On Friday I woke up at 3am, got on the road to LU by 4am.  At 5am it was pitch black still and there was no street lights, so the only light was from my headlights.  I could see 3 cars in the distance due to their lights.  I then saw two tractor trailers pulled to the side of the road.  I did not give it any thought.  I was just going to stay in my lane (right lane) and call it good.  I was coming upon them and at the last min I felt an urge to move to the left lane, so I did.  At that same moment, I saw diagonal in the lane i was just in an unmarked black car with no lights on.  So, if I waited another second, I would have smashed into that car going 75mph.
Ya, it has God written all over it.  I saw my life flash before my eyes a bit.  

update

Quick update...
I am staying very busy.  I now have a little social life.  I have met a group of people who meet on Saturday night 40ish min away from where I live/ hour-ish away from work.  So, I plan on spending time with them. Last night I was there till 2ish am... got home at 3.  So, needless to say I enjoyed myself finally.  God is blessing me and I am so thankful He is looking over me. Ok, that is all I feel like writing. 

Different

Wow, life has totally changed for me.  I went from being at Liberty to a graduate living at home to now working two jobs both of which I would never have expected to have.  I work again at SuperCuts cutting hair.  They asked for me to come back and fought for me to be in that store.  I do like it there, but that is not what I want to do the rest of my life.  My second job is a dorm mom which is stretching me beyond what words can say.  Not only am I a dorm mom for Korean girls, but I also teach a conversational English class which I have no idea how to teach it.  AHHHHH. I need help.  But God placed both jobs in my lap, so I know this is where He wants me.  It is just stressful since I have no idea how or what to teach, so I was just making up some different things and it sounds like a good plan.  For some of the girls it is, but they also do not put to much effort into it.  Guess this is my new memoirs about teaching girls on different levels.  Some find it way to easy, but they also do not try to get anything from it.  Since what you put into it you will get out.  Just stressing out but I love this experience.  I just do not want to make it to easy.  I want to be perfect at everything I do and here I am learning so I am far from perfect and that gets to me.

Ease dropping

Have you ever unintentionally listened in another persons conversation?  Like you could not help but listen?  Well, that happened today to me.  I am just going to recap a part of it that stuck with me and I want to share with you.  

It is hard to discern between what you want to do since it feels good and what God wants you to do.  Do you want to do something since you want to, or because God wants you to? 

It started making me think, I know my desires come from God, but are they the direction I should head?  Or does God's plan involve me doing my "second" favorite?

Just so many thoughts are racing through my mind.  It is hard to filter all of them.  In the end, I know God has His loving hand on my life and as long as I serve Him, I am within His will for my life.  But there are so many paths I could head, which one is the right direction? 

If you are reading this, feel free to comment and start a discussion, I would love to hear what you think.

Back at school

I am back at school trying to finish up this semester.  I graduate in May and I am trusting in God for my future.  I have been so busy this semester that I have not been able to spend time trying to find a job for after graduation.  But my life has been turned all around and daily I am asking God to show me new things.  He is getting me through everyday.  Without God, I would not be here.  Looking back, God really has my life in His hands.  He is protecting me and keeping me living towards Him.  God is throwing new opportunities my way and I pray that I do not pass any up.  Life still goes on.  The main thing is just pushing through.  God is my strength and He does provide.  No matter how much school work, stress I am under, and all the twist and turns in life, God is there for me.  

God Provides

God is amazing!  He is providing an opportunity to visit the cabin in PA which is my second home.  Earlier this semester I was hoping I could go, but did not think possible.  I never told anyone.  Now, I am going with my dad!  Oh, best part yet, grandparents will be up there making maple syrup.  It has been four years since I helped.  Oh, how much fun I am going to have in a few short days. I am trusting that God will provide a ride to the friend which I brought to NJ.  We would come home (8hrs) just to pick him up to drive (8hrs) down to school, or dad would just take me back to school from PA (9hrs).  Either way, it will be a long time in the car, but I want to cut out any extra time.  God, please provide a ride for Mark.  You provided me with this opportunity, please do not stop me just because I was trying to be a good friend earlier.  You provide and I trust you.  Just continue to work Your hand.

Today has been an interesting day.  Woke up and went with my dad and pop to a farm auction to see what all is there.  So, our van does not have a back seat, so i had to sit in the trunk of the van.  haha, that was fun, just riding in the trunk of the van.  Twas nice.  We just walked around the auction to see what they had.  
Got home, then talked to my dad for over an hr about this fish pond we are building.  He really just needs someone just to talk to.  I am there to listen.  I do enjoy hearing what all he has, but there are so many ideas with no action.  He wants to make it perfect first time through.  It is not bad, just is getting no where.  I am impressed that he does put so much thought into it.  Means that he is thinking through every detail.  He has so many good ideas, but it is going no where.  All talk and no action is not good.  It is good to think through the idea and make sure it is good, but if it is all talk and no action, what is the point of talking?  It should be 1/3 talk and 2/3 action.  He is at 9/10 talk and 1/10 action.  Keep that in mind, think through things but also take action.  Make sure your action is good, but at the same time you are not just contemplating what to do but never do it.  Talk is good, but action needs to happen for the talk to be beneficial.  


Guess that is my thought for the day.  Do not be all talk and no action.  Back up what you say.  If say something, stand by it.  Not just in the example that i said above, but in your daily life too.  If you want to change your life and do not like the way something is, change it.  The only person holding you back is you.  


personal example.... you say you never see a person around and you are wondering how they are and that you never talk to them, well, make a point to talk to them.  Text or call them, ask them how they are.  Do not play the blame game. 


Remember, ask God for help.  He is always there for us.  God never will leave us nor forsake us, even in times of trouble.  Just trust and give it all to Him. 

Another day

Today is another day to be alive!  Oh, how grateful I am to God to live yet another day.  I have no medical reason to be dead, but just happy that God has blessed me with today.  God is so good.  It is amazing what all He does for us without realizing it.  Have you ever taken a step back and looked at your past?  Do you see Him working now?  At the time you might not have, but has your perspective changed now?  God is good to us.  He says He will never leave us nor forsake us.   I believe that with all my heart.  That does not mean life will be easy, cause it wont. Life is hard and one big pain.  But no where does it say to give up, in contrast, it says to press on with endurance the race set before us.


I am home from school for Spring Break.  It is weird being back, a part of me misses home the other part does not.  I love it here, do not take me wrong, but I miss my freedom.  God is protecting me.  I am using this time to just grow, get away from college's distractions.  At home, I have nothing much to do and no where to go, so it is a very nice get away.  


Some might know that I have a private blog, well this blog is my public one.  I want people to read these thoughts and feeling which I have.  I do want to share them with people, but just not sure who to tell them to.  So, if you are reading this, you are meant to read what God has used me to write.  Share your story, I would love to hear.  I am praying for you!  Know that God loves you and is always there for you.


.:Molly:.