New Year

This year started out AMAZING!!!!  God is really blessing me being able to visit with my friends out of state and create different friendships at home.  I guess I do have friends now at home, I met them in the  summer and I have hung out with the Bible study enough to be semi-comfortable around them and such.  When I can, I've been attending a Bible Study on Saturday nights and when I do go, I typically stay till midnight.  I would stay later, but the drive is 35ish min.  I love the drive home, so peaceful that I do not mind it so much.  But God is good to me.  He brought along these people so I can hang out with.  I only see them once a week if that often due to my work schedule.  
Sometimes when I hang around them, it makes me miss my LU friends so much.  Its hard to explain, but my heart just gets really heavy at times and I just get really sad, and miss the TKD group, just my friends in general.  I have gotten over missing certain people, but I do miss all the good times.  Like the b-day parties, lunch table, TKD, just talking about crazy stuff.  Why did things have to change?  
Life does go on and change is not always bad.  I can react a couple different ways, the two obvious is make the best of it or hate it.  I am choosing to try to make the best of it.  
God is helping me get through these times in my life.  He has brought along people who are constantly trying to grow and seek God.  So, how can I refuse to hang out with people like this?  Other than that, I really do not have a connection with any of them.  I know God brought this group into my life and I am so blessed because of it.  I continue to place my trust and hope in Him.  I know God has a plan for my life, He does watch over me.  I just need to trust in Him.  

God's Blessing

God does bless us when we ask for it. Yesterday was Sunday (my least favorite day of the week, ask me and I will explain way), and I just prayed to God that it will be different, that I wont feel certain ways.  Of course His wonderful humor made me cry at 12:30am... So, my day started very early making me hate Sunday's.  Well, went to Church (Ya, actually had off work), and helped with our outreach of giving out ThanksGiving dinners to over 100 people.  I missed being involved in church and I did enjoy being part of something.  Then I helped my dad outside for about 4hrs with the fish pond.  Loved helping him, still hated Sunday.  Finally, I took my Korean girls (only 4 of them) to someones house.  After an hr of being at their house and just talking to the kids, I realized God turned my Sunday around.  He blessed me and answered my prayers.  I did not realize it right away, but after I stepped back and just realized what was going on, I knew God was blessing me.  I asked, so I noticed.  If I never asked God to bless me and help me, would I have even noticed what God was doing?  God made a situation happen and I just felt at home and like I belonged there.  I was so close to not even noticing.  Sometimes we just need to take a step back and just look at life to see what God is doing, how He is working in our lives.

Nothing new

There is nothing really new to report.  I am doing the same old same old.  Working two jobs and just overall busy.  I do still enjoy both of my jobs.  Still living at home, so when Im home I still have stuff to do and technically cant relax still. I got little going on outside of work, but it is enough to keep me busy.  Been reading lots of books, which I am quite pleased about.  I now have time to read, at work anyways.  Not sure if anyone will read this... So, me writing this is probably in vain. I have found people to see once a week, don't really see or talk to them else wise.  I do have one kid from that group who reminds me sooo much of Jon Finley.  It is actually creepy.  The voice, same color skin and skinny, and the fact he constantly texts me.  To the point where I am not really replying.  Mean I know, but it is getting to much.  Oh, and he is very clingy, annoyingly clingy.  Oh, I wonder if I can compare everyone in that group to people at LU.  Nope, cause at LU, if I had a choice, I would not pick those people.  Most are not my type nor would they want to even be around me.  Some are into MMA & BJJ, I get along with those guys the best, imagine that.
Well, that is whats been going on in my life.


.:Molly:.

Oct 28, 2011 5:00am

October 28, 2011 at 5:00am is the day I almost died.  You heard me correctly, I almost died.  It was God's hand of protection over my life which saved me.  I am truly blessed to be alive and I know God has more for my life and something planned which I need to be alive for. The brief story of how God saved my life.
On Friday I woke up at 3am, got on the road to LU by 4am.  At 5am it was pitch black still and there was no street lights, so the only light was from my headlights.  I could see 3 cars in the distance due to their lights.  I then saw two tractor trailers pulled to the side of the road.  I did not give it any thought.  I was just going to stay in my lane (right lane) and call it good.  I was coming upon them and at the last min I felt an urge to move to the left lane, so I did.  At that same moment, I saw diagonal in the lane i was just in an unmarked black car with no lights on.  So, if I waited another second, I would have smashed into that car going 75mph.
Ya, it has God written all over it.  I saw my life flash before my eyes a bit.  

update

Quick update...
I am staying very busy.  I now have a little social life.  I have met a group of people who meet on Saturday night 40ish min away from where I live/ hour-ish away from work.  So, I plan on spending time with them. Last night I was there till 2ish am... got home at 3.  So, needless to say I enjoyed myself finally.  God is blessing me and I am so thankful He is looking over me. Ok, that is all I feel like writing. 

Different

Wow, life has totally changed for me.  I went from being at Liberty to a graduate living at home to now working two jobs both of which I would never have expected to have.  I work again at SuperCuts cutting hair.  They asked for me to come back and fought for me to be in that store.  I do like it there, but that is not what I want to do the rest of my life.  My second job is a dorm mom which is stretching me beyond what words can say.  Not only am I a dorm mom for Korean girls, but I also teach a conversational English class which I have no idea how to teach it.  AHHHHH. I need help.  But God placed both jobs in my lap, so I know this is where He wants me.  It is just stressful since I have no idea how or what to teach, so I was just making up some different things and it sounds like a good plan.  For some of the girls it is, but they also do not put to much effort into it.  Guess this is my new memoirs about teaching girls on different levels.  Some find it way to easy, but they also do not try to get anything from it.  Since what you put into it you will get out.  Just stressing out but I love this experience.  I just do not want to make it to easy.  I want to be perfect at everything I do and here I am learning so I am far from perfect and that gets to me.

Ease dropping

Have you ever unintentionally listened in another persons conversation?  Like you could not help but listen?  Well, that happened today to me.  I am just going to recap a part of it that stuck with me and I want to share with you.  

It is hard to discern between what you want to do since it feels good and what God wants you to do.  Do you want to do something since you want to, or because God wants you to? 

It started making me think, I know my desires come from God, but are they the direction I should head?  Or does God's plan involve me doing my "second" favorite?

Just so many thoughts are racing through my mind.  It is hard to filter all of them.  In the end, I know God has His loving hand on my life and as long as I serve Him, I am within His will for my life.  But there are so many paths I could head, which one is the right direction? 

If you are reading this, feel free to comment and start a discussion, I would love to hear what you think.